Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

I'd love to see Paris... That's one goal I have. I want to see Paris before I die.

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Me and Grandma June 2010

My Grandma was a big part of my childhood... I hated it when she moved so far away, but then she introduced me to one of my favorite places in the world. Love you Grandma!

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

My favorite band is Matchbox Twenty... They make me happy...

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Missy Miss, Ian, Me, Sister Suzie, Lils Jan 2009

They are my love, and my life.

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Ogden House October 2008

Snow... I hate snow. I hate cold, I hate snow, I hate anything to do with snow. I hate SNOW!

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ridiculous things with

Jeremy, Me, Emalee 1986

Yeah... we're pretty crazy. We were when we were young and we still are today.

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Mom 2006

My Mom has gotten me thru most everything in my life. She helps me, loves me, and is my best friend.

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Ian and Katy May 2008

This picture makes me laugh. This whole situation made me laugh. Ian had a crush, or something, on our cousin katy that day. This is the only reason I can think of for why he was watching her in secret all day.

Or it might have been the fact that she was sitting in "his" spot all day.

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

COOKIE!!!

My most treasured item has to be my cookie monster. I've had him as long as I can remember. He's a little worn out, and broken. But he still makes me smile.

Day 06 - A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day

lils

I don't think that there is a person I would trade places with. I like my life, even with the problems I have, I have a good life.

Lils however has a perfect life. She's the perfect pampered pooch. I'd like to trade places with her for a day and just be pampered like a dog.

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Smelt Sands Oregon June 2010

I have many favorite memories. Especially last Summer in Florence Oregon. We went to my grandmother's house for a family reunion and was able to reunite with lots of cousins and aunts and uncles. It was a total blast. On one of these days my immediate family went to Smelt Sands, a beach north of Florence. There are all these tiny stones and we just spent the day playing in the dirt. It was a wonderful day...

Day 04 - A picture of your night

cupcake wars and computer...

My night last night was spent like every other night. Watching television, playing on the computer or iPad, and just being... The only addition to the night was the kids spent the night. They weren't here when I took this picture, and I forgot to take a picture of them here once they got back.

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Glee

I'm a television junkie. I LOVE TV. I love being entertained. So, since I watch a lot of television I have a lot of favorites. So I decided to go with my current favorite: Glee.

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Me, Jeremy, Emmy

I don't have many close friends who I've been friends with for years, and years. I am close to my brother and sister. I feel like I'm close to all my immediate family.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts

Me 26.12.10

1- I'm an information/technology junkie. I like having all the new fun stuff.
2- I watch way too much television.
3- I've suffered from insomnia since I was 16. Right now my clock is totally off so i go to sleep around 4 am.
4- I have an unhealthy obsession with my dog. She's a little spoilt. Maybe not as much as she could be, but as much as I can get away with.
5- I live with my parents.
6- I like to read. I especially like to read fan fiction.
7- My nieces and nephew are the best things in my life. They make me happy.
8- I like sandwiches. Sandwiches are my favorite food. I LOVE a good sandwich...
9- I like to think that I'm smart. But I know that there are a lot of things out there I know NOTHING about.
10- I do nothing but read an watch soap opera's all day.
11- I'm addicted to Glee.
12- I like watching TMZ... they make me laugh.
13- I take my iPad with me everywhere I go.
14- I'm a candy addict. I've tried to get off sugar, but I only lasted 12 days.
15- I'd rather sit in a dark room than a room full of sunlight.

I'm not sure how I'm going to go about this whole idea I had. But here it is.

So today's character is one of my very favorite television characters. Josh Lyman...

Josh is a character from the television series 'The West Wing', created by Aaron Sorkin. Josh is one of the sharpest minds on the President's staff. He is witty, somewhat cocky, and has this boyish charm that many women fall in love with.

I'm not sure why I love this character so much. It could be his cockyness (i think I just made up that word), or his wit, or his boyish charm, or it could be actor Bradley Whitford's brown eyes and dimples. But he will always be one of my favorites.

Character's Welcome...

It has been a long time since I've done much writing. It's been a long time since I've done much of anything to tell the truth, but we're going to try this again. Maybe I'll actually get thru a month. That's a goal that I can work with.

February's NaBloPoMo is about Character. I don't usually follow their monthly theme's, but I thought that this might be fun.

Character has about 20 different definitions in the dictionary; there is the origin, the noun, adjective, and verb... Now when I hear the word character my mind goes directly to TV and those USA network Character's Welcome commercials. Now why am I bringing that up? I thought that I would write about my favorite "Character's".

We'll see how this plans out...

it's been a while..

I have no idea where the time went. I swear yesterday it was just July...

I'm going to try and get back into the swing of things here. Everything just kinda went wacko there on me for a while.

Hope all you are well,

we helped some...

hello there....

Not sure what to write about today, but I didn't want to just not post anything. Especially when I'm trying to write every day.

Woke up with a headache this morning, and I still have it. can't decide if it is sinus or what. I do hear the blood rushing thru my ears. i hate that. Mom said she hears that all the time. I don't know if I would ever get used to that sound.

I have 10 days left until I head to Oregon. I'm so excited for this trip. It's finally time for our Family Reunion, but I'm also going early to spend some time with Grandma.

okay. Time to eat my slim jim and drink my slice.

sleep...

So I've decided that if I want to wake up earlier, I have to go to bed earlier.

I usually go to my room about 10.00 and spend a few hours reading before I turn the light out around 12.00. Now with my television being over for the summer I can head to my room about 9.00, spend a few hours reading and get my meds running thru me and turning the light out at 11.00.

I did this last night. Had a little trouble falling asleep. Don't know what the time was, but I remember counting to 400. That's what I've been doing lately when my brain is still working when I turn the light out.

Now we'll see if I can actually get out of bed at a decent time now.

lightbulb...

So I realised last night, while trying to sleep and counting to 750 then giving up, why I am feeling so down on myself, and why I ache so bad, and why I'm so tired, and why I just want to cry at the drop of a hat. And this might be a little TMI for some of you, but...

I should be starting my cycle tomorrow. I'm just PMSing.

Wow... that was a revelation to me. I haven't had actual PMS symptoms that I've noticed this bad in quite a while.

Now we shall see if I actually start.

What I really need to do is get an appointment at Dr. McKernan's office to get the oblation taken care of. Maybe if I did that I'd feel better. But being the usual procrastinator that I am I keep putting it off. Now it will just have to wait until after the Family Reunion.

the beginning of another week...

The weekend is over. Here we are at the beginning of another week.

I went to bed "early" last night. Kinda drugged myself to do it, but I did go to bed earlier than I usually do. and I had set my alarm to get up "early".

It didn't work. When my alarm went off at 8.30 I pressed the snooze button. I wasn't getting out of bed. Yes, by this time I'd already slept 9 hours. but I still wasn't moving. I even made the dog go back to sleep. Didn't wake up until 10.30.

Today I just ache and I'm tired. Is there a storm coming thru?

I want to start walking on the treadmill again (already too hot at 8 am to do it outside). I even bought new tennis shoes to do so. I've had those "new" shoes for over 2 weeks now, and I haven't used them once. *sigh* yet another thing I've failed at.

But tomorrow is yet another day.
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.

fail...

Okay... so I've already screwed up June.

But I'm going to try and keep writing.

This isn't for anyone. I doubt anyone is even reading it. I don't care tho. This is for me. I have to get back into writing a journal. I haven't done it in so long, and I kinda miss it.

The weekend is here. It will go fast. It always does.

Thursday...

The week is nearly over again. Time just seems to fly by when you don't do anything.

Sometimes I think about going out and volunteering. But then I think about the people, and leaving the house, and... I think that I'm becoming a hermit. Hm... what's the female version of a hermit.

When I think about going out with people around, I get a little scared. It's all in my head.

tired...

Today I'm tired.

I go thru days where I'm feeling great, just fine, and then days where I wake up and I just don't want to be awake, i just want to sleep, spend the day in bed.

today is one of those days. I did get out of bed. I moved to the couch and watched soaps. I haven't changed from my jammies tho.

June 01

It has been a long time. I don't even know where the time has gone. I can't believe that it is already June. WOW... I can't believe that the year is nearly half over.

I'm going to attempt NaBloPoMo this month. We shall see how well I do this month. The theme is NOW. I may or may not even attempt to write on this theme.

June is also National Scleroderma Awareness Month. Check out the links and such on the top of the right column.

We shall see what comes this month.

My Big Adventure... Day One and Two

Hello all! I know, it has been a very long time since I've posted anything here. And I can't give an excuse as to why. Just lazy I guess, thinking I have nothing to say.

Well right now I'm on a big adventure. I'm in Antrim, Northern Ireland. Not far from Belfast for those of you who don't know your geography (I didn't at first either. Had to look it up to figure out where it was.)

I'll be spending most of the month of February here. I arrived yesterday, the 31st of January and I return home on the 27th of February.

I started out my journey Saturday, January 30th, at 4.15 in the morning. Yes. I said morning. IT was early, way early. but I needed to be to the airport 2 hours early, and my flight was an early flight, and it takes nearly an hour to get to the airport. Lils wasn't happy about getting out of bed this early. And neither was mom for that matter. She was the one to drive me to the airport.

My first flight (I say first cause I had 4) was to Houston. I then spent 2 hours there being sick after the plane ride, and got onto my second flight, to Orlando.

NEVER! and I mean NEVER! get on a flight to Orlando unless you want to be surrounded by children. I swear half the plane was filled with children all in different moods varying from the extra excited about going to Disney World, to the kicking and screaming for some reason or another.

The next flight was from Orlando to Newark. The flight to Newark was delayed by nearly an hour. Making for anxious reactions from me. It was a good thing that my next layover was nearly 2 hours, so by the time I got there it was only an hours wait.

I was a good girl and had requested wheelchair assistance if my gate locations were far apart. The only one that I needed it for was in Newark. I swear i landed on one side of the airport and the gate i was leaving from was on the other side. Okay, so i landed at gate 134, and leaving from gate 73, so It wasn't all the way across, only just half way.

The flight to Belfast was leaving Newark at 9.30. So I took a lovely sleeping pill before we even started boarding the plane. By the time we boarded, and I was comfy cozy with my blanket and pillow provided by the airline, and no one next to me (no one in the middle seat I should say) and took off. I was asleep. I don't remember taking off at all, I do remember waking up about an hour into the flight and thinking it is taking forever for takeoff, and looking out the window and finding out we were in the sky. It made for a lovely trip.

I slept for 5 hours of the flight, and woke up just in enough time to have a lovely roll and some fruit and juice for a small breakfast. I had obviously missed dinner being served due to sleeping.

We landed in Belfast at 8:50 am local time. I made it thru customs nice and fine. I was amazed that they let me into the country. seriously it was one of my fears, that i would get here and they would say no, you cant come in, turn around and go home. But nope, I got a stamp in my passport! WOOHOOO!

Our luggage was late because of unloading some cargo first, so It was nearly 45 minutes before I saw Kerry (my girlfriend I was coming to visit) and Kyle (her nearly 2 godson). He was so adorable. He was so excited to see me. Him and I have been visiting on Skype for quite a while now (with the help of kerry) so he thought it was pretty cool that I was there and not just on the computer.

That is basically it for day one and two. and nothing much more happened the rest of the day. I met Laura, kyle's mother, and Kerry's mother Linda and Grandmother Mary. I ate some real breakfast, then took a 3 hour nap.

after that we watched television and talked for a while, ate dinner (a yummy english beef roast feast with yorkshire puddings that I'm in love with) said goodbye to Laura and Kyle, and then headed to bed. I was counting down the hours until it was time I could actually go to sleep, and it was near.

Tuesday Tunes on Wednesday: Christmas Pipes

I woke up this morning thinking it was Tuesday... I swear that it was. But I was just told that it is in fact Wednesday. SO, all morning I've thinking of songs for this week's Tuesday Tunes, just to be told that it's Wednesday.

But since I've already decided on a song, and I need to really change my song cause it's been the same for weeks, I'll post Tuesday Tunes on Wednesday and Random Wednesday will be back next week.

One of my favorite Christmas songs is a new one I discovered last year.

I got the Celtic Woman Christmas CD for my Grandmother last year. Loved it so much I had to get it for myself. It has become one of my very favorites. I love listening to these women sing. Their voices blend so well together and they just make me happy.

Anyway... LOVE this song. Love the music, love the words, just love this song. I hope you enjoy it!

Christmas Pipes
Sung by Celtic Woman

Words and music by Brendan Graham

Christmas pipes, Christmas pipes
Calling us home on Christmas night

Call us from far, call us from near
Oh play me your Christmas pipes

Christmas bells, Christmas bells
Over the hills and over the dells
Ringing out bright, ringing out clear
Oh ring me your Christmas bells

Christmas strings, Christmas strings
Playing the peace that Christmas brings
Fiddle and bow, gentle and low
Oh play me your Christmas strings

Christmas choir, Christmas choir
Christmas carols 'round Christmas fire
Holy night, angels on high
Round up your Christmas choir

Christmas band, Christmas band
You're waiting for me with your Christmas band
Cymbal and drum, rattle and hum
March out your Christmas band

Christmas pipes, Christmas pipes
Calling us home on Christmas night
Call us from far, call us from near
Oh play me your Christmas pipes

Good to be home to your Christmas
Good to be home to your Christmas
Good to be home to your Christmas pipes

Hello December...

Hello December, On the warm and pleasing sunny day. Together with azure cloudless skies No coats to wear, or hats to bear just the Soothing warmth of the sun so high And when evening falls, a billion stars will Come out and blanket the vast desert sky.

(stolen from my mother's facebook)